have u ever?

have u ever thought who u really are as a person?have u ever thought what people may perceive u?have u ever thought that life ur life now is wat u ve been predicting since u knew how the word goodbye family hello world?
I hve....i have always wonder my existence can or wil make a difference in anybody's life.when i was young i wondered whether d ones i knew could remember my name.it is an astonishing thing when someone says she remembers me.even niw i stil wonder wat my hubby is thinking marrying me n all n trust me with his happiness.m i capable of giving someone happiness?
Life sometimes really funny.when u think it's wrong it can b right.when u think something is bad it can
n be like it's d best that can happen.is it wrong to let my mind wander all over d place?this hana's mom is one confused lady!

So m i really saying here?i m darn sleepy lets sleep hehe what i m saying here is if im always second guessing myself anybody can too which makes us HUMANs kan?in i m actually a pretty normal person.

bad dreams

i had a dream.actually lots.last nite was scary.i dreamt i parked a car with hana in it n left her alone in d car.to make matter worse i parked at a beach.i didnt know y i thought i could leave hana sleeping alone in d car.it was raining heavily d water riose i couldnt get to hana on time. D car submerged in water i screamed.my hubby appeared n we went 2 d car 2 c n all we saw d car was empty.a person brought hana i was hysterical.some1 saved my baby.suddenly i was awaken by d subuh azan.i look 2 my rite.there she was,sleeping safe n sound.i could stil feel d panic from my dream.alhamdulillah it was just a dream.a bad dream.

kek vanila berkismis

ok folks, this is my first recipe for my RESIPI YANG BELUM TENTU MENJADI blog, which i m still finding time to start it...hehehe

..all right...ingredients
margarine 2-3 senduk nasi
sugar secukup rasa say 6--8 sudu kedekut
eggs 3, i used AAA size
vanilla essence 2 bottles
cake flour rose brand about 250g dalam 3 cups gitu but add or minus depends on the consistency of the batter la kan.
powdered milk secawan yang dah dibancuh air.
kismis sebanyak yang dihajati

methods
cream the margarine with the sugar until fluffy
crack the eggs, mix well
pour in the vanilla essence, milk, mix very well please
put in the cake flour, mix again..at this point u see la,if a bit dry pour in more liquid, if a bit watery add more flour.
after a few mins, pour into d cake tin which has been 'smothered' by butter of margarine..
level the mixture with a spatula...sprinkle the raisins as much as u want bebeh...
n put in the oven of 170 deg 30 mins which also depends on ur oven. ops don't forget to preheat yeah..say 10 mins before u put in the cake..
how to know it's all done, insertlah garpu ke, lidi ke, kot kebal, jari ke, if it comes out clean, it means...dah pun masak...

since it's my RESIPI YANG BELUM TENTU JADI...i wish u good luck!

the good,the bad n the whatever

aidilfitri is around the corner but for me i have already seen d syawal baby moon.in other beautiful words "sekarang aku hari raya.hehe.a run down on wats good n wats bad wats watever.

The good
this ramadan i m fasting with all d vvips of my life.my hubby,my parents,my only baby girl hana,my c6,my hpmini netbook,my car,my house,my sewing machine,my lcd tvs,my samsung cam,my blender and my electric n gas oven.

The bad
POKAI,hana's pe'elness of wanting to b at d dinner table during iftar even tho it passd her bedtime is giving me a headache.
Wat else?s someone great told everyone bersyukurlah so watever not good i dun wanna highlight.

The watever
hana has about less than 15 dresses for raya.m i fishing kidding me? No.everytime go out i buy something for her.our friends n neighbours a few of them are willingly to be hana's baju raya sponsors.thank frenz u know who u r!i made 3 types of sweet cookies.amazing!d art of buying premix flour.senang hidup.savvy has transformed herself to alza.syukur!Allah gives us a nice gift this ramadan n also a very precious gift DANIA HANA AMIRA. This raya is so special coz we can collect duit raya from now on.huhuhu

blogging in

The whole idea of motivation is a trap. Forget motivation. Just do it.
Exercise, lose weight, test your blood sugar, or whatever. Do it without motivation.
And then, guess what? After you start doing the thing, that's when the motivation comes
and makes it easy for you to keep on doing it.

- John Maxwell

no wonder i'm not losing weight...i think too much, analyze too much, motivated er too much....i have d same opinion also, in losing weight we should not, we do not have to think....WE JUST DO IT....hmm macam iklan nike lak kan...anyways....i really need to get in shape...i feel so old. I realized there's no miracle drug to make me feel younger or livelier but exercise and eating appropriately.arghhhhhhhh, i need to get rid the M factor as well...what's M Factor? MALASSSSSSSSSS....OPS just do not think...JUST DO IT...JUST DO IT...JUST DO IT....

all tensed up.

i have tummy ache today n hana's crying is x helping.arghh...tensen nye.evry time she cries,i'd probably feel lethargic 4 some reason.i guess i m stuck with her good or bad but i'd like 2 admit that i cant do this job alone.it is too taxing

what?

dinner tonite,x 1 invite me 2 dine together with d family.x even my husband.went 2 d kitchen 2 c whether theres any food (after tucking in hana)nada... Shud i feel anythg?d thing is i feel so sad.